I slept from exhaustion, yet still feel exhausted. No word can explain best. Life, oh life, is such a party, a grand festival, a rollercoaster to me because life is the moment I am living right now. How grand life could be for me? I don’t live in either my past or my future as I am interested in the present. I have no choice but to move on. I was able understand one thing; making a decision was only the beginning of things. When someone makes a decision, she is diving into a strong current that will carry her to places she had never dreamed of when she first made the decision. Clinched but true.
I always try to concentrate on more practical matters and to be a happy person. The closer I got into the realization of my dream, the more difficult things became. In my pursuit of the dream, I was being constantly subjected to tests of my persistence and courage. So I could not be hasty nor impatient, but the determination was pushing myself impulsively. I failed in many ways, hence I need to write, to share, to talk as to avoid thinking about possibility of refusal or any negativity.
The whole experience had taught me to understand the words of God; people need not to fear the unknown, or what could turn out to be if they are capable people of achieving what they need and what. Simple yet easy to understand, but coming to the real material life, we are often afraid of losing what we have, whether it is our life or our possession. However, this fear evaporates when I understand that our life stories and history were written by the same hand.
One thing is certain, life has never been easy. Some things matter me, some don’t. What doesn’t wipe me out makes me stronger as I believe that things happen for a reason.
A reason for me to find out.